Incessant rumblings of the core

Oh haaaaaaay rave! Stay sexy. XD

People be trollin’ my Marceline. “She’s okay, but…” “I wouldn’t have that in my house…” Buh. It hurts my feelings. Yes, random strangers. :\

Currently awaiting the Battlestar Galactica Q&A :D

Yay Supercon traffic -_- Meant to be here early but no, I had to try body paint again. Never again…

Arrived a bit late to Supercon today, stayed up far too late right now helping my Ading Brian with his wig (… styling this wig was a pain and I don’t think I did a great job but omg T_T; We’ll see…).

Highlights!

• Thinking I’d missed Billy West but actually finding him where the famous folk were and HE SIGNED MY BRAIN SLUG. AND I GAVE HIM ONE, TOO.
• THE RICHARD HORVITZ AND RIKKI SIMONS Q&A. AND THEN HAVING THEM SIGN MY THINGS. (SIGN ALL THE THINGS~)
• While doing the above, somehow not realizing Colonel Tigh was speaking right after them—you see, THERE WERE NO PROGRAM GUIDES, they only materialized near the end of the evening. 
• Catching the last fifteen minutes (for shame) and giggling when we all said, “SO SAY WE ALL.” OMG.
• JUST OMG.
• Wondering where the Pro Photo Shoot with said Colonel Tigh (Michael Hogan) and Cally (Nicki Clyne) was. SEEING THEM RIGHT THERE. APPROACHING LIKE IT WAS NO THANG. “I’m wondering where you’re all supposed to be, too…”
• COLONEL TIGH. FLIRTED. WITH ME.
• … @__@
• NICKI CLYNE. SO. ADORABLE. OMG.
• SHE’S ALL
• “WE HAVE A Q&A TOMORROW” AS IF I HAVEN’T LIKE. CIRCLED IT IN RED. WHICH I SHOULD. EE-HEE.
• Ahem. Seeing Oren, my erstwhile violin teacher, attaching to their group, detaching, re-attaching, lol.
• Finding the mysterious second floor~
• FINALLY MEETING CHARLENE. AND KIM. AND KIIIIIM.
• BUYING A WIG FOR ADING BRIAN AT THE LAST MINUTE. HOLY COW.
• FORGETTING TO BUY A WIG CAP. WAL-MART ESCAPADES.
• STAYING UP TIL ALMOST 3 DOING LAST MINUTE COSPLAY STUFF. OMG.
• I’m going to have a panic attack tomorrow driving and when we get there because I’m a perfectionist and I won’t have enough sleep and omg.
• Note to self: Remember business cards to hand out when taking photos. I forgot. XD
• SEE YOU GUYS TOMORROW!

I’ll be Marceline complete with Axe Bass possibly attached by guitar strap. Which I should work on. Again, again, again. Hmmm. Tumblr folk, if you see me, say hi! I’ll keep a lookout for you all, too. :D

And I’m so excited, a lot of my friends are going to be there, I think. :D 

Watching Supercon wrestling XD

I spy, with my little eye, someone else with a brain slug XD

It’s pretty intense. Wonder if I’m in the right place-they have no program guides. Huuuh. Tomorrow’s going to be something. Billy West, I will find you and have you sign my brain slug. Raaaah.

INTENSE. I wonder if I could find Billy West… And oh, they’re out of program guides… Hmm. Adventure!

Finally on my way to Supercon, I’m going to miss out on most of Billy West but excited to go! Say hi if you see me!

Totally didn’t mean to be this late but better late than never!

It’s funny. I’d just written that other post when my mom talked to me about precisely that.

“I know you might have plans, but you need to drop them. And what’s this about Brian sleeping over? Tell him no.”

Fuck no.

My whole point of wanting to go to Supercon was to not have to deal with you or dad. To actually do something enjoyed rather than being fucking miserable.

And here’s the stupid thing. If (fucking “if”) I do go, I might not be able to enjoy myself as much, because all I’ll have is them in the back of my mind, bitching at me. And I’ll feel guilty. Because that’s pretty much all I’m good at feeling.

So rather than being happy and excited, I’m fucking raging this morning. And I really needed to get more sleep, too. Oh well.

I can’t believe this. I was looking forward to this weekend as a way to just enjoy myself without my parents around. And of course they had to shit on my parade.

I know they’re doing the right thing. They’re doing the parental thing.

But I’m an adult. With fucked-up priorities. God forbid I want to enjoy myself. Yes, the job is important. But I’m not going to move there tomorrow or the next day. I’ll have time to plan. Planning was all I did when I thought I would get the job, so there. Is it too much to want to enjoy myself? Probably. I know people with more sense than I do would do the right thing.

But I’ve seemingly done the “right” thing all my life and it’s made me sick and gotten me nowhere.

And so I’m fucking going. I hope I can still enjoy it. This needn’t be another Sleepless Night where I can’t enjoy it because of them. If I go, I need to go, and enjoy it despite everything.

I almost wish I hadn’t told them. If only because after he called me about the job, it made Supercon seem all the more exciting to go to, knowing I’d only go up from there.

BUT THEN THEY SHAT ON IT.

So mom called and she said to go for it, unlike my father who’s concerned about finances and losing his job if he goes with me. So I’ll go by myself, if I can. It’ll be quite a drive but I’m an adult.

And there he goes telling mom about my weekend plans. Well, excuse me, they were already there. Goodness. Plus, my priorities are skewed.

I’m going back to sleep.

I think 1:18 AM EST is too late in the evening for my father to be griping at me about the low pay and hours I’d be getting if I moved to Texas.

Crap, I said “if.”

Sigh.

I want to. I know everyone’s raising valid points.

But I’ve always said that I’d rather be miserable living paycheck to paycheck rather than being miserable here—but really?

We’ll see, I suppose.

bluefootedbooby replied to your post: AHHH! GUYS! GUYS! HOUSTON CALLED ME EARLIER. …

OMG YAY CHARAMY!! What kind of job is it? Is it a sales job like the insurance one???

You’re excitement makes me excited! XD

No, no, it was that child care center job my mom and I flew out for! They actually called me back! Woah!

(and I’m so glad you’ll understand this—>) all the more I can make money to go to D*C for my birthday weekend and meet KARA THRACE YEAAAAAH!

Ahhh, so frustrated. Too many things happening. Agh.

Need to make a final decision. 

Need to start my fandom tote bag—I thought I’d have it done by now, ugh!

My priorities are very, very messed up. -_-

And dad reminded me I need an oil change…

Well. The con’s not going anywhere. I’ll just be there later. .___.;

AHHH! GUYS! GUYS!

HOUSTON CALLED ME EARLIER.

THEY NEED ME “SOONER THAN WE THOUGHT.”

OMG.

I already left my aunt’s house

my head hurts, I’m sleepy, I’m exhausted, I have a headache,

it’s almost 7 PM EST but I’m totally going to take a nap (and try not to sleep throughout the night)

and omg I am so not ready for the crossplay contest tomorrow at all

buuuut

yeah.

CRAZY.

So I was all

WHAT DO I DO

to my friends

and of course to them it’s obvious that I should

TAKE THE JOB

And it’s a BIG LEAP

But what’s life without some big risks?

RIGHT?

(As I look back on that big risk I took with the insurance company… ack.)

BUT THIS MIGHT WORK OUT BETTER.

WE’LL SEE.

I NEED TO GIVE THEM AN ANSWER TOMORROW.

I NEED TO SLEEP.

I WAS ALL

“WHAT JUST HAPPENED? WHAT’S HAPPENING?” AHHH.

So I managed to do some productive things, couldn’t find my yarn needle so I can’t quite sew my brain slug to a headband yet, but other than that, I can probably do some other things. Like my fandom tote bag. XD

Except now I’m super sleepy and just want to take a nap. T_T;;

I was going to stay until the contractor left so I could do some things at home and prepare for tomorrow (I still haven’t quite fathomed that TOMORROW IS SUPERCON) but

yeah

and oh I bought a 4-pack of Amp energy drink. I’m terrified.

AND SPEAKING OF TERRIFIED

I’m entry #2 in the crossplay contest. OMG. I’m terrified.

Stop being so afraid and go kick some butt!

i.e., I need to go think of poses. T_T;;

For the drive anyway

and I have so many pretty songs (Joe Hisaishi and piano arrangements of Kingdom Hearts songs and so many other things)

but I think they’d make me accidentally fall asleep on the drive back, LOL.

Maybe I should have two separate ones: Day and Night. XD

No, I just need to watch more anime and get more lively~ music! HAH.

Been out of the loop for so long…

Anyway, today I’ll try to do some productive things and then start on my FANDOM TOTE BAG, ohou. (I honestly, honestly, HONESTLY thought I’d be done with it by now… AHAHA.)

1 AM, I clearly did not try hard enough to not see you this evening. Haha… Maybe tomorrow I’ll actually sleep early. I better!