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May 12, 2013

I slept in again…

I think I’m one if the only people who would feel disgruntled by that fact because it’s like I’ve just been wasting time.

I did wake up at 6:30 initially, then at 9, but then Pixel was lying down on my chest so I didn’t want to disturb her… so when I woke up again she was completely passed out, haha. And yet I didn’t want to sleep through most of the day again so I had to wake her up anyway….

Also, it seems I’ve been losing weight, but not due to exercise (because I haven’t been, oops), and that has me concerned. I haven’t been -that- stressed (I don’t think…). There’s quite a… medical history in my family so I have to keep a lookout. And maybe finally get a physical.

And finally, Happy Mother’s Day!

My mom got her flowers on Friday all right, but they were absolutely not what I had ordered. I was very disappointed. It’s what I get for being last minute (although I had purchased her card a month ago, haha) and just, well…. I paid quite a bit of money, I feel like they could’ve at least put them in a glass vase, not a basket. Ugh. She was supposed to get these beautiful pink lilies in a glass vase but instead she got pink roses (I was trying to do something other than that) with maybe three lilies. I’m anal retentive, OCD, control freak (it’s why I’m a teacher, hah), neurotic to the max, so it really bothered me. I know they probably had to substitute because everyone’s probably ordering last minute but if I’d known that were to have been the case, I wouldn’t have upgraded and paid extra. Ugh. Because I’d gotten a $20 for $40 for FTD but since I upgraded and also still needed to pay shipping and service fees, I paid almost $40 anyway. So… yeah. Next time I need to order months in advance or at least see if a guaranteed florist actually exists…

Anyway, enough of my ranting, she seemed to like them enough, so… add long as she’s happy. I just don’t want her having to settle for less, that’s all.

Now off to my cereal, it’s getting soggy.

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May 11, 2013

This has been my laziest Saturday, ever… I really thought I would’ve gotten more done by now…

It’s funny, yesterday was a tad rough but my director (despite the situation) had mentioned to me how I should “put myself on my priority list.” I’m not ever really good at that in general.

So I guess maybe I’m trying a little more to do that today, although not quite in purpose, so it feels like I’m wasting time…

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May 06, 2013

Currently going crazy, details to follow. It’s not a big deal, it’s just a lot of little things eating away at me. Aaaack.

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May 05, 2013

So my mom fell at Home Depot and might be badly hurt yet my dad still has -her- go to Pollo Tropical instead of himself to order food. …

I gave him a good earful and told.Jim that wasn’t right and that he should’ve been s gentleman. … pfffft, right. Hah, I had to bite my tongue after that.

Go ahead and convince me chivalry isn’t dead. Oh, my father. I know just because he acts that way it doesn’t mean that all other men do, but you have to admit, it sets a poor example.

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May 05, 2013

GRAH!

So mom wanted me to help her with her Facebook this morning and was all apologizing for taking up my time (she wasn’t) and I’d been helping her via Skype, etc. So at the end I was hoping we’d have 5 minutes of Skype video time but she did the whole thing where she was all, “Go do your things,” etc, trying to scurry away, as she’s wont to do. And we were on the phone at the time and she abruptly left without saying goodbye. Which was weird. And I sat there, frustrated. Because she acted like she was taking up my time and yet couldn’t give me any of her own or a decent goodbye? It hurt and I wasn’t going to have it. So I called her back and she said she did say goodbye—perhaps it hadn’t gotten across. But yeah. I don’t let things slide nowadays. I go for what’s mine. With fire and blood.

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May 02, 2013

This week has been very frustrating for various reasons.

I’ve seemingly reached my limit today, everyone could tell I was close to having some bizarre breakdown. I think they’re all waiting til I explode one day and the children will see really crazy me.

My classroom is mostly full. Some of ‘em weren’t listening today. Other things. Even in the breakroom, my co-worker (that usually isn’t the emotional type) asked me what’s wrong (that’s a big deal). She asked if it was parents, something personal, but … it’s just various things. But I wasn’t upset, more like… frustrated and angry, partially at myself concerning myself as a teacher. Another co-worker said, “You seem different today….” It must be bad if they’re actually noticing it. I mean, I’m usually all sorts of down and all every day, but I’m usually able to keep on my little happy mask. I guess the stress has been getting to me. I have been feeling overwhelmed lately.

This weekend should be interesting. It’ll definitely make up for this week, my goodness. But I’ll let you know during it all, hahaha.

How are you all this pre-Friday evening?